for such a time as this

Yet who knows whether you have come to the kingdom for such a time as this?”

Esther 4:14

Do we trust God—really trust Him?

We make our plans and plots. We say, “Oh, this is what I’ll be doing for the next year,” or “I’ll do this, and then this…” I

My friends can attest to my proclamations through the years—especially when we plan to move homes…again. I’ll say, “No, really, this one is our forever home!” See, my friends and family have, for the past 27 or so years, had to write my addresses in pencil (even as I argue otherwise). Even before I met my husband at age 27, I moved several times after I finished graduate school—including across the country. Since we were married in 1994, we’ve had 15 addresses, across three states. And with each home, I’ve declared, “This is it! No more moves.” 

The Lord, however, always seems to have other plans for us. There have been times when we could look around and see glimpses of God’s hand in motion, so the “why” of that season is somewhat understood. But other times, when the Lord has directed our path, it’s only well after the fact (or a season of years) that we can look back and understand it was clearly “for such a time as this.” One example is us suddenly leaving a Colorado town and home we loved to move to a more northern, not-so-lovely town we actually always despised when visiting family…in retrospect, it was not so random, as our son had been born in that part of the state, and he was waiting for us to adopt him to be his forever family.

So, amid my plans (or, admittedly, sometimes after my plan-making), I’m always reminded of parallel verses in the Old and New Testament that slap me upside the head with God’s Truth: We can establish our short- and long-term game, but the Lord determines our steps—His will is going to prevail, regardless of what our planner may say. Tomorrow is unknown, let alone next year (Proverbs 16:9; James 4:13-15).

My point? The Lord will always move us (spiritually and sometimes geographically) for His glory and our good if we are obedient and trust Him. (Romans 8:28). We have to trust that each step—even if it’s nebulous to us—is purposeful in God’s Big Plan. 

So, what’s going on in your life right now? An illness? Forced career change? A completely unanticipated move across the country? Maybe you can look around and currently see the miracles along the way, directing your decisions. Maybe, like in Joshua (chapter 3), all you know is that God is telling you to take a single step of faith before anything else—even the very next step—is revealed. (And, often, that first step is terrifying.) Either way, His purpose and plan for you are, indeed, for such a time as this. 

Friends, trust Him. He knows you and loves you. So, step out in obedience and faith. If not today or tomorrow or this side of heaven, someday we will see and understand this season. And we’ll see the good and the glory in it all.

Lord, I trust You. Show me the next step and help me to be obedient. All I long for is to glorify You in it all.

Praise You, Lord!

I will bless the Lord at all times; His praise shall continually be in my mouth.

Psalm 34:1

Yes, life is crazy right now for everyone. I mean, all of us will always have a bit of insanity going at any given time—family drama, job stuff, financial challenges, health worries. And, of course, in this moment of history, we have a greater divisiveness in our nation than I’ve known in my five decades of life. Not to mention, being in the midst of a global health situation with a tumult of confusing voices on every side, shouting to prove their “truth” on how to best handle it.

I think we can all agree: Life is hard

But, as believers, we can embrace a perspective in all things that is different from the world. We can look for the praise.

Friends, the Lord is with us—He will not leave or forsake us (Deuteronomy 31:6). When we are obedient to His Word, trust Him, and remain surrendered to the Holy Spirit, God is faithful to reveal His presence and His will (Proverbs 3:5-6). The Bible tells us that God’s Word is a lamp unto our feet and a light unto our path (Psalm 119:105). But just as we need the light at our feet, I believe we need to hold up the lamp all around us as well, looking to the left, right, and up. This is how we illuminate the blessings—and the find the praise. 

Let’s be intentional about holding our life—moment by moment—up to the light. Let’s look around at the little things throughout the day to recognize the Lord’s Hand in them. And in the big things (good, great, bad, or downright ugly), let’s be washed over by God’s grace and mercy in it…because, again, He is in it. 

I can be a bit hard-headed and, as I may have mentioned a time or two, somewhat of a control freak. So, sometimes I actually have to look behind me for the praise. In fact, that’s where my gaze—and praise—has been in recent days: responding to the still small voice saying, “Child, look at what I’ve been accomplishing on your behalf.” As I’ve been focused on doing and box-checking, my precious Lord has been blessing me. There are events, for instance, about which I’ve been frustrated that have resolved…I was relieved, but now—in looking back at the situation—I see that God’s timing is what I needed. Not what I wanted.

So, as I sit here and give God glory because I can see how He’s has been putting my current life-puzzle in place, I am reminded to also look in the present for praise. 

Lord, I do praise You in the big and little blessings. I trust You—help me trust You more. I believe You—help my unbelief. Let me seek You—and find You—in the moments of my day.

circle of friends

“Then Daniel went to his house and informed his friends, Hananiah, Mishael and Azariah, about the matter, so that they might request compassion from the God of heaven…”

Daniel 2:17-18

The Old Testament Book of Daniel is pretty exciting. Even if you haven’t read it through, you’re probably familiar with at least a couple of its action-packed events. There’s the time Daniel’s buddies were thrown into the fiery furnace after refusing to bow down to an idol, confident that God would rescue them—and even if He didn’t, they still would not worship any other God. (I won’t tell you what happens, but you can read about it in chapter 3.) Then there’s the famous lion’s den saga—another nail-biter found in chapter 6—when a group of the king’s advisors set up Daniel to get rid of the pesky do-gooder. 

But at the beginning of this book, tucked away in chapter 2, there are a couple lines that speak to the importance of reaching out to our friends for prayer support. Here, the king has a disturbing dream that he wants interpreted. He asks all his magicians, astrologers, and sorcerers to help, but he refused to tell them the actual dream itself. They needed to reveal his dream and its meaning. When none of them could, the king decided to kill them all (well, cut into pieces, to be exact). Because Dan and his friends were among the king’s counselors, they were on the literal chopping block as well. 

So once Daniel heard about the king’s decision, he went home and shared the matter with his friends. The Lord had already shown Himself to be merciful and powerful to this group of faithful young men, blessing and protecting them after the Babylonians took them captive. They knew the power of prayer. And although Daniel knew that he could go to the Lord on his own with his request, he chose instead to share the matter with his buddies. 

When we reach out to others with the “matters” of our life and ask them for prayer, there is a multifaceted result as beautiful and precious as a diamond. First, we benefit from a shared burden (Gal 6:2). Of course, the ultimate Load-bearer is Jesus Himself—He tells us to give Him our burdens (Matthew 11:28-30). But when we lean on our brothers and sisters in Christ, our weight is shared, and thereby lightened. 

Second, we grow in love for one another. Jesus taught us to love our enemies and pray for those who persecute us (Matthew 5:44). He’s encouraging us to look at others through the perspective that God sees us: as sinners in need of grace, mercy, and a Savior. Praying for others helps us move forward in this endeavor.

Finally, we are being obedient to God’s Word. From Job (42:1) to James (5:16) to Paul (1 Tim 2:1, Ephesians 6:18, Col 1:9)) to Jesus Himself (Matthew 5:44, Luke 6:28, Luke 22:32), we are called to pray and intercede for others. It is a step of obedience that brings us closer to our Lord as we spend time with Him. Plus, when we lift up others in prayer, our fellowship with the Lord becomes a little less about us.

“Lord, thank You for my brothers and sisters who lift me up and share my burdens. Let me be a faithful load-bearer to others as well.”

profitable

All Scripture is God-breathed and is useful for teaching, rebuking, correcting and training in righteousness, so that the servant of God may be thoroughly equipped for every good work.

2 Timothy 3:16-17

How can we really be sure what’s right and wrong? How can we know God’s will for our lives—the moment-by-moment guidance and the big-picture direction and purpose? How can we be prepared and equipped walk in a way that is pleasing to God? 

God gives us everything we need in the Bible. Scripture has the answers—all Scripture. Not just the pullout quotes that look nice on coffee mugs. Not just the hope-filled promises, but also the upsetting warnings. 

In his second letter to Timothy, Paul succinctly describes how the Word accomplishes our equipping for life’s journey. Many translations of 2 Timothy 3:16 use the word “profitable” for “useful.” I actually like the implications here. Useful is good, certainly. Things that are useful connote practicality and purposefulness. But profitable…this goes a step or two beyond utilitarian to fruitful, advantageous, rewarding, and favorable. Profitable takes us beyond the pragmatism to the worthwhile gain.

So, what’s this secret sauce from Paul when it comes to God’s Word—the “insider information” to boost the bottom line of life? It’s really very simple. The Bible tells us all: “Don’t do that. Do this instead. And keep on doing it.” 

Very simple, yes. Far from easy.

But, it’s all in there! Relationship and marital advice, parenting tools, insights on the type of friends to have (and to run from), leadership traits, organizational administration, how to communicate effectively…the list is endless. From Genesis 1:1 to Revelation 22:21, we are given scientific facts in biology, astronomy, archeology, etc. (some of which are being newly corroborated even today). The Psalms relate to our everyday struggles and frustrations, while reminding us of God’s sovereignty in it all. The Proverbs provide very practical wisdom that, when followed, save us from a lot of grief. From all the New Testament writers, we get to see relatable human frailty and failure along with Holy-Spirit led victories. We learn how to keep on moving forward toward our eternity in the light of our salvation. And we can rest in the fact that will take a few steps forward and a couple steps back—but at least we’re going in the right direction.

And, most importantly, every one of the 66 books point to a single underlying theme: Jesus— our Lord, Savior, Friend, Anchor, Strength, Judge, King. Because it is knowing Jesus and accepting who He is and what He’s done on our behalf that, well…that’s the most profitable thing of all.

trusting God through fear

When I am afraid, I will trust in You. In God, whose word I praise, in God I have put my trust; I shall not be afraid. What can mere man do to me?  

Psalm 56:3-4

These verses from David, as he was on the run from King Saul’s murderous pursuit, may seem contradictory at first glance. He basically says, “When I’m afraid, I won’t be afraid.” Huh?

Let’s start with the comforting thought that even David—a man after God’s own heart—uses the word “when” here. He acknowledges that he has been, is, and will be afraid. This from a man who killed bears and lions as a young shepherd boy, took down a giant with a stone and slingshot, and victoriously battled enemy after enemy throughout his life. David didn’t seem to be afraid of very much.

In the context of this Psalm, though, the current king, Saul, wants David dead because he knows David will take his throne. As Saul and his armies are chasing him, David feels the heat. He knows he’s just one step ahead of Saul, and he hears the word on the street—the lies about him, the traps being set for him, the oppression, the eagerness for his demise.

And he is afraid.

But, because he has trusted the Lord throughout his life, because he knows and loves God’s word, David has a solid foundation on which he can stand. He has experienced the fact that God is for him (v 9). The Lord has protected him and delivered him in the past (v13), so David knows that God’s promises to him are true. Moreover, in verse 8, David describes how God has walked with him through his wanderings and trials, collecting his tears through sorrow and pain.

And he’s still afraid—and that’s OK! In fact, the seemingly contradictory part in verse 4—“I shall not be afraid”—is not saying that David won’t experience fear. David’s saying that when he is afraid, he’ll use it as a prompt to recall, “I trust You, Lord, and trust Your word!” He is saying, “In my fear, I don’t have to be afraid.” (I picture him hiding out, perhaps in one of his many on-the-run cave dwellings, shaking in his sandals and repeating to himself in prayer, “I’m not afraid, I’m not afraid, I’m not afraid.”)

What a great reminder for us all. In this life, we all have battles and trials (John 16:33). We may, like David, even have people twisting our words and setting traps for us—eager for our downfall. And although we may not have someone pursuing our very life, every believer has a real enemy of our soul who wants us to live in discouragement, distress, and fear. 

But God. God is praiseworthy, faithful, true. His word is trustworthy. We need to look back on His blessings and recall how He’s carried us through previous storms. Let’s recognize that we have not shed a single tear that God has not caught and collected. And, by putting our faith in Jesus, we can also look ahead to His promise of eternal hope. Regardless of how daunting our circumstances are today, our ultimate future as believers is fear-free. 

“Lord, when I am afraid, I will trust in You…and I will stand firm on the foundation of Your truth—Your Word—to recall that You have a hold on me. What can mere man—or Satan—do to me?”

a sure thing

Because, if you confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord and believe in your heart that God raised Him from the dead, you will be saved.

Romans 10:9

Uncertainty. Anxiety. Fear. These thoughts and emotions are among the most prevalent in today’s “unprecedented” times. (Well, they’re not that unprecedented, but that’s another story.)  In fact, the CDC—right or wrong, everyone’s go-to resource these days—recently reported that 25.5% of young American adults between 18 and 24 have considered suicide between May and June due to our nation’s response to COVID-19. This same study also noted that 13.3% of survey respondents claim they had turned to substance abuse, including drugs and alcohol, to cope with stress caused by the pandemic.*

The economic impacts to families, communities, and our nation have also been catastrophic on many levels. And, young children are facing long-term emotional and psychosocial damage from suspended schooling and other mandated actions. The list goes on and on and on as to valid reasons for sustained dread and insecurity.

But there is good—no, great—news! A “sure thing” is available to us all.

There is blessed assurance in the saving grace of Jesus Christ. When we accept what Jesus accomplished on our behalf, we can be absolutely secure in our current standing with God and our eternal destination (John 5:24; 10:28). It’s not about our good-versus-bad tally each day (we’d all fail there, friends). It’s not about our church attendance or donation totals. Salvation (our sinful nature traded for Jesus’ righteousness) is not dependent on what we do—or don’t do. It only requires a decision to trust the Lord and surrender all those efforts to Him and His work alone (Romans 10:9; Eph 2:8-9; Titus 3:5).

And this certainty is not based on our feelings. I’m confident that many Christians (if not all of us) doubt our salvation because we’re not “feeling” close to God. We will have mountaintop experiences and valley seasons. We’ll struggle with our ungodly words and actions. Maintaining “the joy of the Lord” can be a challenge. But we’re in good company—just read David’s Psalms or anything from the Apostle Paul! 

So, if you’re reading this, and you’re already a believer, you can rest easy amid today’s tumult. Your security in Christ is a sure thing no one can take away. And, if you haven’t yet placed your faith in Jesus, why not make today the day (2 Corinthians 6:2)? All you have to do is let go of your uncertainty, release the idea that being “good enough” is good enough for an eternity in heaven. Just believe that, on the cross of Calvary, Jesus exchanged His life for yours—your penalty has been paid in full. Just believe and be forgiven—and you’ll be a new creation (1 John 1:9; 2 Cor 5:17). 

After all, we could all use a sure thing right now.

https://www.cdc.gov/mmwr/volumes/69/wr/mm6932a1.htm

do you make others thirsty?

You are the salt of the earth. But if the salt loses its saltiness, how can it be made salty again? It is no longer good for anything, except to be thrown out and trampled underfoot.

Matthew 5:13

Today, people have a love-hate relationship with salt. We love the way it makes our food taste better when it’s added in the right amount—too much, though, and it can ruin a meal. And, for some, overusing salt produces a biological response that raises their blood pressure, creating a health risk. 

In Matthew’s gospel account of the Sermon on the Mount (Matthew 5-7), Jesus told His disciples that they are the salt of the earth—and the same message is true for His followers today. This lesson has many layers, especially when you study the different uses (and incredible value) of salt in Jesus’ time. There’s the preservation significance of salt, as there was no refrigeration. This equates to how we, as Christians, are to be preservers of God’s Word. There’s the flavor aspect of salt—and our call to flavor our world with the love, mercy, and grace of Jesus. 

But I want to look at a different quality of this simple mineral—one we all know for sure (and an aspect restaurants use as a standard profit-maker): Salt makes us thirsty. When we eat something deliciously salty (popcorn, chips, Chinese food, etc.), we want a tall glass of water nearby. Biologically speaking, when our bodily fluids and blood get saltier than the cells, vital water is actually pulled out of the cells. Those cells begin to protest, signaling the brain to tell us, “Hey! We need more water in here!” Hence, we feel thirsty.

So, when it comes to creating thirst for Jesus in others, how are we doing? Are the words we speak—and the tone we use—deliciously salty, inviting others to drink from the Fountain of Living Water (John 7:37-38)? Are our actions kind and grace-motivated, pulling from the other person the desire for more…and the desire to know more? When we interact with others, do we leave them with a pleasant taste? Or, when our paths cross with others, do we leave a nasty bitterness in our wake that merely produces a desire for them to rinse and spit?

Convicted? Yeah, me too.

Friends, let’s make an effort today—and every day—to be the salt of the earth, as Jesus encourages us to be. Let’s be preservers of the Word. Let’s flavor our homes, workplace, and community with grace. And let’s behave in a way that leaves others thirsty for more of what we have…Jesus.

Lord, may I be salt and light to the world today, especially as Truth evaporates and the darkness deepens. Let me represent You well.

“Hypocrites!”

“But woe to you, scribes and Pharisees, hypocrites! For you shut up the kingdom of heaven against men; for you neither go in yourselves, nor do you allow those who are entering to go in. Woe to you, scribes and Pharisees, hypocrites! For you devour widows’ houses, and for a pretense make long prayers. Therefore, you will receive greater condemnation.”  

Matthew 23:13-14

know you’ve heard it. “Christians are such hypocrites.” In fact, I know you know people who do not go to church, don’t trust the Church, or even refute the existence of God because this statement is true.

If you haven’t been under a rock recently, you’ve read or seen media coverage on the tragic fall of the president of the largest Christian university in the world. The situation is sad and disappointing. And the media, along with unbelievers everywhere, are almost giddy as they report (um, attack) with a sparkle in their eyes this man, his family, his family name, and—of course—the university. (Don’t get me wrong, he’s made very poor decisions over the years, and I pray his heart turn back wholly to the Lord.) 

(I will also say, though, that my heart is utterly broken for the students and faculty who wholeheartedly love the Lord…and the generations of graduates since 1971 who are making a profound impact for Christ globally.)

But, fellow Christians, I have one request of us before we—with the masses—face his image on the TV or computer screen, point, and shout, “You hypocrite!” 

First, go to a mirror, face your own image, point, and shout, “You hypocrite!”

Yes, the Church is hypocritical—it’s full of hypocrites! Its chairs are filled (well, 50% or so filled at present) with people like you and me. Fallen human beings who, although saved by grace, still live in the world. We have been made righteous by the blood of Jesus Christ, so that when we stand before a perfect and holy God, we will be seen as worthy of His presence…but we’re not there yet. We’re here. In this world, in this broken body and depraved mind. Right now, we are not perfect—no one standing on this earth can proclaim otherwise.

That being said, as Christians, we—through the power of the Holy Spirit—still must strive to live an authentic life. We must read the Word and walk in the Word, doing our best not to “turn to the left or to the right” (Proverbs 4:27). And we recognize that we will fail. Like the great Apostle Paul bemoaned, we do the things we don’t want to do, and we don’t do the things we want to do (Romans 7:15-20). But, as we stand firm on God’s Truth, we ask—and receive—forgiveness (from others and from God), and we keep moving ahead.

So, whenever we see or hear of “hypocritical” Christians, stop, turn to the nearest mirror, and pray.

“Lord, thank You for making me a new, perfected creation in Christ. As I await living out that perfection with You in heaven, help me to live authentically, let me seek Your forgiveness when I fail, and help me extend grace to others.”

hope of creation

May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit. ~

Romans 15:13

I heard a pastor talk mention how Christians believe in three creations—which I thought was a pretty cool concept. Simply put, we believe that (1) in the beginning, God created everything. (Gen 1:1). We believe that (2) when we surrendered our life to Jesus Christ as Lord and Savior, we became a new creation (2 Cor 5:15). And we believe that (3) ultimately God will recreate the heavens and earth to be our eternal home—and we will be given newly created bodies to live there, bodies that, like that earth, will not decay (Rev 21:1-5; 2 Cor 5:1-3).

But what struck me after I was ruminating on this comment is that our hope as Believers is also founded upon these three aspects of creation. Let me explain. 

Regarding God’s creation of the heavens and the earth, we—as believers in a Creator God—hope in His omnipotence. He made it all and He is in control of it all, no matter how out of control the world seems to be. I hope in Him, because He is all-powerful, all-knowing, good, patient, and gracious. He knitted together each of us in our mother’s womb (Psalm 139:13), miraculously creating unique, ordered strands of DNA that makes each of us, well, us. Universally and cellularly, He is the Creator of it all (Col 1:16).

Next, as partakers in the soul-level regeneration of salvation, we have experienced the creation of newness within—the miracle of transformation from unrighteous to blameless, stained to white, dead to alive (2 Cor 5:15; Isaiah 1:18; Eph 2:1-5). Yes, brothers and sisters, we have been made new, forever changing our future. We have hope in our eternal destination: in the heavenly presence of Jesus, the One who transformed us. Our circumstances here may be challenging—but they are temporary. Pain may wrack our body (I know mine has been quite wracked lately), but we can anticipate a new, perfected body that will never deteriorate, hurt, or grow weary (Rev 21:4).

And the third creation: the new earth—heaven on earth, really. This is where our hope as believers gets really exciting. When we study Revelation, we learn that after the Millennial reign of Jesus (which will itself be 1000 years of awesomeness for Christians), God will melt away everything as we knew it to create our forever home. This is where we will eternally worship, learn, make friends, eat amazing food, and—most importantly—see clearly our Lord and Savior, daily coming to greater and greater understanding of who He is (1 Cor 13:12).

As amazing as all this hope is to us, it also dawned on me the contrasting hopelessness of those who have rejected creation…at any or every level described here. 

Those who don’t believe that God created, well, everything, won’t worship the Creator—they’ll worship the creation (earth, stuff, people). And because all of creation is on a trajectory of death, hope in creation will always fail and disappoint the worshipper

For those who reject Jesus and His sacrifice on the cross to pay our debt and set us free (making us a new creation), what hope do they have for their future? They hope in self. They may try to be “a good person” and satisfy some nebulous universal accountant. But how can they ever be sure they’ve done “enough”? The result can only be despair. 

Finally, our world (nation, culture) is in a constant state of decay, any way you slice it. Whether you believe God’s clock has run out, or if you anticipate generations of continued patience on God’s part, the fact remains: Jesus is coming back. Without going into eschatological discussion or hitting on the non-essentials of pre-trib, mid-trib, post-trib theology, etc., suffice it to say that a New Heaven and New Earth will be created. And our respective new bodies will live forever there. 

So, I am not hoping science to “prove” our world is billions of years old. (In fact, the more science learns, the more it aligns with the Bible—but that’s another blog altogether.) I will not put my hope in “saving” the earth through some New Green Deal. And I do not put my hope in governments or civic leaders who themselves are fallen and rotting. 

My hope—and I pray yours—is in the One True and Living God, who made it all, sustains it all, and rules it all. His love never fails, so neither will my hope.

“Lord, all my hope is in You, even as these times seem hopeless. Help me have ready a reason for my hope, so I can share it with others.”

words of the wise

Watch your tongue and keep your mouth shut, and you will stay out of trouble (NLT).

Proverbs 21:23

Have your words ever gotten you into trouble? Have you uttered thoughts out loud—either under your breath or at the top of your lungs—that you wish you could have taken back the moment they left your lips? How often does your tongue betray the ugly truth of your heart?

As for me, the answers to the above questions are yes, oh yes, and way too often.

Although Scripture has a lot to say on the matter, you don’t have to be a Bible scholar to know the power of the tongue. Our flesh is a formidable foe, and it’s so easy to use our tongue in a way that’s hurtful—to another person and to ourselves. And, much like squeezing out toothpaste from its tube, once spoken, our words cannot be “put back” or become unspoken.

So, how do we keep our tongue from evil (Psalm 34:13) and ensure our words are used to bring comfort and edification? Here are three simple instructions found in God’s Word. Simple, yes. Easy? Well, not so much. 

  • Listen first. “If one gives an answer before he hears, it is his folly and shame.” (Proverbs 18:13) When having a discussion (or disagreement), it’s easy to start formulating your response without really listening to the other person. Instead, try to focus on what they’re saying, parrot back what you heard, and ask questions of clarification. Not only will we prevent foolishness, but we may quickly come to a mutual understanding.
  • Watch your tone. “A gentle answer turns away wrath, but a harsh word stirs up anger.” (Proverbs 15:1) When a situation is emotionally charged, our words can be as well. The same exact sentence can carry polar opposite meanings depending on our tone of voice. This is an area of personal struggle for me. In fact, sometimes I don’t even realize I’m using a “harsh tone” until someone (usually my husband) “lovingly” points it out. 
  • Be gracious. “Let your speech always be gracious, seasoned with salt, so that you may know how you ought to answer each person.” (Colossians 4:6) When we greet each day with the gratitude of God’s grace in our own lives, recalling that we’ve been spared the punishment we deserve thanks to Jesus Christ, extending grace to others starts coming more naturally.

Lord, set a guard over my mouth and keep watch over the door of my lips, so that I may bring comfort and peace—and not pain or anger—by the words I speak.